it aint hocus pocus but focus...

for the first time, i actually spent some time to THINK. never have i spent thinking so much for the past 67 months in my life! haha. i am really apprehensive of the road ahead. sometimes i feel really confident (like now) but sometimes i really feel not-so-confident of whether i would be able to achieve my aims in life. only time will tell...for the short-term, i hope the next 23 days will pass by really quickly so that i can ditch all IOC, CCAs and assignments and just PROPERLY focus on studies. haha...
meanwhile, check out BEATBOXING FLUTE INSPECTOR AND HARMONICA INSPECTOR on UTUBE. they are really good at beatboxing while playing instruments!

positive energy...

i realised that i had been kinda dumb on Friday for being depressed for nothing. i talked to someone-i-know-who-really-is-a-role-model-for-everyone for about an hour and HE rekindled that desire-to-succeed that i have had for the past five and a half years. These past three days have been spent on thinking, going out to stop myself from thinking too much and thinking again...I have attained a strong sense of my achievements and successes so far...And, I will promise everyone who have kept faith in me that I would not let you down. Not only that, I will also prove to the few who think that i cannot achieve my five aims:)

unappreciated...

all my life, I thought i had been blessed with so many gifts...i had the support of my parents, my teachers and most importantly, my friends. i loved each time i accomplished something. i think thats what makes me feel so down today. though it might seem to you that i might have accomplished a lot, and even though it might seem trivial to you, i never have really felt that unappreciated for my efforts up till today.

confessions of a mugaholic

I decided to blog for about 5 minutes before i start on my wlit again? more like trying to cut down on 550 words! FCUK (to comic effect)
I cant wait to get my results tomr! NOT! haha. i wont be there while the class is receiving the results due to NS medical exam. hehe. oh by the way, have i told you that wlit sucks?
i just got reminded of fmylife.com haha. seriously, it is damn funny; with its slapstick humour and sarcasm, even the Great PC loses out in terms of humour.
I know i have been really selfish for the past few days. This is because of mainly 2 reasons:
1. my parents complaining that i do not go out with the family much? like omg! wth. actually, it is true i guess. It has been more than a month since i went out with my family.
2. asking Jun to help me with my wlit so many times. I swear i feel so damn damn bad. i promised that i would help her with anything she was weak in? (practically, shes good at almost every subject). Ah wells...
ok guys, it has been 4 min 59 seconds since i have penned down my erratic (Note: erratic is not erotic) thoughts.
wlit calls :(

reminiscing

The past 18 mths have been the most intense of my entire life! No surprises though, it is cos of IB! As one great being said; "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times". I have become very philosophical over the past few days, thinking about life just as it is. It has been a long time since i actually had some time off to think about my life. I just realised that Term 2 of this year was the most intense; really really really intense. I reached home (on average) at 7pm and this was attributed to NYAA Gold Award activities (took up half my life), St johns and photog activities, CAS activities, EE, TOK, HINDI IB Exam. See, i told ya! it was the freaking most insane shit ever! I am glad it is all over now. NOT! i still have my non-existent wlit which-just-came-into-existence on wednesday. i made quite a bit of good progress. i just have to start amending my essay. i still have Hindi IOC, and English IOC after that. I am glad that NYAA and CAS are freaking over! seriously, i never knew CCAs were such a pain in the ass! on second thoughts, it was indeed tiring but enjoyable to have seen myself grow in terms of maturity. Especially after my 23000 word NYAA report, 3999 word EE, 1598-word TOK, 325-hour CAS report (i m tellin ya, it is actually more than that. LOL. i was just lazy to clock in the rest of the hours)...
And wait, I had another disappointment; Harry potter and the Half blood prince movie! it wasnt as good as expected. before the movie, i was literally jumping for joy. After the movie, i had mixed feelings about that movie. Nevertheless, I urge everyone to watch the movie as there were many good scenes (notably, Ron's and Hermione's) In addition, i was also glad that my friends and I were one of the first ones to catch the movie on thursday.
this post has been a really long one...this could be attributed to my sickness (HEALTH)...haiz. I guess all these efforts would indeed pay off eventually.
Have i told you about my five aims in life:
1. 44/45 points (IB)
2. Get accepted into NUS Med School or with-scholarship to any other overseas uni
3. get into OCS after NS BMT
4. Become really buff
5. i cant tell you about this. shhh...

i really hope that i would be able to realize my dreams. but for dreams to come true, i would have to do sth about them right? i will promise myself to work so hard for the next 3 or 4 mths to achieve my aims.

Though I started this blog a day later than...

Today has been one hell of a roller coaster ride. First, it was the shitty math paper I had to write for 2 hrs. At the end, I started laughing out of self-pity. LOL. Then, I went like ‘Crap’ so loudly till the rest of the class heard it and laughed. At least, i wasnt the only one who found it real hard. After that, i played soccer for an hour or so with the rest of the year 6s who didnt take physics. YEA!
then, i went out for lunch at pastamania @ cine with about 10 members of the class and nikhil. haha.
FINALLY THE TIME HAS COME.
Transformers movie: i had been waiting for so long to watch this movie. I had previously turned down a request to go watch the movie as i was trying to study for CTs. lol.
Basically, the movie can be summed up in 5 words: Megan Fox, Linkin Park-the new divide, Opt prime, Megan Fox, Megan Fox. I also found that chick who turned into that freakazoid kinda hot. haha. after the day, the four of us went to meet up with the rest who hadnt watched the movie. we hung out for a while and decided to part after that.
nikhil and i then went to play pool @ paradiz. i was totally not in form as i had lost 1-4 :( i am sure i would be able to pick up the skills after IB. haha.
by the time i reached home, it was already 8. sth really inspired me and i went to run for about 15mins? haha. yea. it has been a good day to celebrate post CTs. OH. i have begun to see transformers everywhere!!!